Another day, another "Sorry, I'm not accepting new patients." "I have no appointments availabe" (that one seemed odd). 
Then again, I went to a workshop today on mental health etc. for para educators., We learned that....
47% of all our students have debilitating mental health issues. Basically we are killing our children and ourselves with stress.
Two and two means we are all so damaged those therapists are overburdened with clients.
I can't blame them if some of them read that gender issues sentence I offered and stepped away from the mess. 
Today was fabulously gay. Who knew that so many aides were a bit bent. The presenter was the cutest man I have seen in many years too. It was a great time as long as I could focus on the entertainment. The rest of the day was mostly 9 and way to many 10s. I had an easy time of moving the 10 thoughts back down and remembering how short life is. Also I thought of or didn't think of anything at all. Or tried. maybe I am not doing it right. I will keep trying it even though it doesn't seem to make sense to constantly be in this not mindfulness state. How can not thinking be called mindfulness? More I guess psychologists can be all psyche psycho     just like we can be all artsy fartsy. Whatever works. 
I have spent most of my  free time at home reading or doing something mindlessly absorbing. I need to stop hiding behind cheesy soft porn fan fic though.
Long week for such a short one. It's all over in 20 years more or probably less.